This first thing I did yesterday at orientation was pick a crystal from this massive box of crystals. This is to symbolize yourself, your person, your soul and you take it everywhere you go and when in session, there is a charging station that you lay your crystal in to show your therapist that you brought yourself with you. That you showed up for yourself. I selected this very light pink stone, I was drawn to it immediately and in my second session yesterday, Denny pointed out that my stone is a representation of unconditional love. I love my people hard, and I have loads of unconditional love for people that hurt me. Over and over again, I have been hurt by people that I love dearly, and yet I only show them love. We talked a great deal about this, and I was able to see the connection on why I’m this way. I’m still processing a great deal of information so more to come on this one. But know, I was able to shift some gears today, and that unconditional love that I have so much for, is for ME only now. My first session today was Decoding the Ego with the Enneagram with Robin. I drove to north Sedona to her house that was located in the most amazing peaceful place in the world. I took a ton of pictures and can’t wait to share with you all. But today, with a ton of data (which I love) I learned that I’m a Number 2- Giver. The Enneagram is a map of human growth and development which combines the wisdom of the sacred traditions and modern psychology to describe nine personality types and how they interact with one another. Each type has different inner motivations and patterns of thinking, feeling and acting which result in unique life strategies. No Enneatype is better or more effective then another, yet they differ radically in point of view. When I get home, I want to share this with all of you. I want the kids to sit down and go through this exercise with me so I can see where they fall on this spectrum. And I can’t wait to do so much more research on this honestly. There are so many reasons why we are who we are. And really understanding our ego and what makes us tick is vital to a happy soul. Being understood, not trampled on when our beliefs are different from those close to us is key here. But society has us stuck in boxes that we don’t belong in. And when we try to explain why we don’t fit, those closed minds around us trample our spirits. We have to let people be who they are, no matter what that looks like. Thankfully I recorded this session so I can go back and listen to it over and over again. Robin is also a #2, so she really understands my soul. And pointed out some important things for me to pay close attention to as I move on with my life as a GIVER. I have many blind spots. And those blind spots are very damaging to my soul. My second session today was Understanding Your Life as a Highly Sensitive Person with Barbara Joy. This session blew me away completely. Barbara is a clairvoyant and provided me with so much information about my soul. I was speechless to say the least. But if anyone is curious, I have 3 of the 4 claires…..Clairaudience, Claircognizance, and Clairsentience. I will share much more detail about all of this and will provide real examples of all of these things in my life later. She also told me that I have had 24 past lives and starting with my 14th life, have been stuck in an abuse pattern. Both of my parents were narcissists, and the trauma wounds on my soul have been carried through generations for a very long time. Which brings me to where I am now. I’m an emotional and physical empath. Have been since I was a little girl. But just over the last 4-5 years have really started to figure this out about myself and grasping how this affects me every single second of the day. Today, Barbara looked at my Oura ring around my person, and 80% of it was filled with OPE (Other people’s energy). Which is not a healthy thing for me. I need to really focus on being an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) and set some major boundaries in my life moving forward. Which I have started mapping out already. I’m hopeful that I will tackle this major piece of my life and will share my bright and shining light of my soul soon. And it will be all mine, not others energy. The third session of the day was Working with Emotional Pain, Fear & Anxiety with Mind/Body/Soul Integration with Laura. This session was 4 hours long. A lot of work was done, still a lot to process. But I saw that my spirit animal is a Tiger, and my feisty 18-year-old self is with me now in everything that I do. I was able to apologize to her for not making her number one back then, not choosing her over others and when I entered into a relationship with a person that was not healthy for me. She has been waiting for me to come get her and let her shine for the world. Honestly, she has been with me since April. I know you have seen her around also…..but she is here to stay this time. And we are going to go do amazing things together. The unconditional love represents her. My path has been paved, and my dreams are filled with strong, loving work that will change my story completely. I’m not a victim anymore, I don’t have a sad story anymore to tell. I’m on a hero’s journey now, and I’m the hero.