I’m READY! The last 3 years I have felt completely dead inside. I have put all of my time and energy into my failing marriage and my kids, that I have lost myself entirely. It’s been probably the most difficult thing to endure and ultimately fail at. I’m a competitive person, have been since I was a very little girl. I want to win. I want to win at everything. I want to be the best. I want to exhaust ALL options to succeed. AND I FAILED. Swallowing this pill has been so jagged and has torn my insides to a million pieces. Try to imagine this for me please….
When I got back from Girl’s Weekend, I had a session with one of my counselors from Sedona. I was exhausted to say the least from the weekend and all I wanted was to take a shower and go to bed. But I also had to work at 11pm this evening so I didn’t have an option of winding down from the crazy weekend. But when I joined this Zoom call at 6pm on Sunday evening, I knew this amazing journey had begun. My counselor Anthony is truly the perfect person for me. He divorced at the age of 44 after a very long marriage, left his corporate BIG job, got his MBA in counseling and now works as a Life Coach and Counselor at Sedona Soul among other interesting jobs he still has. He listened to my very sad story and could actually relate to me. His compassion for my feelings and emotions just hit me a different way. HE SEES ME. I was really moved by his words and how we so easily connected on a level that I needed this evening. We spoke about all the messy stuff, and then worked on setting some very clear intentions for my work at Sedona. I’ve printed these intentions out and will post around my hotel room, in the rental car, on the mirror in the bathroom, and carry one in my purse so that I can read them often and stay very intentional about what I’m doing in Sedona. I’ve been advised to stay focused on myself and try to really be deep into my feelings and thoughts while away. And to not reflect much with those that love me during this week away. So here is how I will communicate what is going on in my brain as I move through this journey. I know I have a LOT of work to do. I know what I want my future to look like on a big picture screen, just not sure how to get there yet. I LOVE ALL of you so much and for all of the many things that you have done for me over this horrible time in my life. I’m hoping to come back Angie 2.0. And she is going to be the best version of Angie that you have ever seen 🙂