I don’t even know where to start. Today was extremely overwhelming and trying to process the day and then articulate here is going to be difficult. I arrived at the Sedona Soul main office this morning early. It was a wonderful morning out, lots of people already out walking and soaking in the sun. When I pulled up, there was a man waiting at the door named Bear. He was there waiting for me. He knew my name and said they were all expecting me this morning. He gave me a hug, and asked how long my retreat was planned for. Five days I mentioned, and he was like….wow, it’s going to be intense. But said get ready to change your life. He walked me upstairs and then it began. My orientation started! Lora took me through so much information. A big box was waiting for me with so many things. A journal, notepads, pens, a bag, crystals, and much more. I have a sheet for each one of my sessions and a map with all of these locations highlighted for me. I have 15 sessions and they will take me all over Sedona. Not one session is in the same place, so I really feel like I’m seeing Sedona, taking it all in, and meeting some really amazing people in the process. My first session Radiant Heart Healing was with a woman named Sher. She had my whole intake history, so we dove right into things. I’m still processing this session and really want to reflect more before I share all the things from this session. What I would like to share is that she helped me start grieving. I’ve cried the whole damn day. She helped explain to me why I have been avoiding all my feelings and how important it is to finally grieve. I can’t skip this step….even though I have always thought deep down that I could. I’ve have been stuck in flight mode for a while which I clearly understand, but today I felt a release of some sort. My energy is for me now. It’s all for me to really process and let go of so much negative bullshit in my body. We talked about the Divine Light, and how important this is for us to shine as humans. I was shining today! I felt it, and so did Sher. So more to come about this session. My second session today was Healing the Relationship Wound with Denny. I got to do EMDR therapy (Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing therapy). This therapy works to dig way deep into memories. I was really taken back by what was coming up during this session. So many things from my childhood, so many important people in my life in these memories, dreams that I have had so many times, it was crazy. I had many ah ha moments. Moments that I’m not ready to share with anyone yet. Dots of my life were connected, and my brain is scrambled eggs at this point. I’ve been journaling today a lot, very random things that come to mind when I’m just sitting around. And I can’t wait to collect my thoughts and writings someday soon and really share with you all. I just can’t right now. I’m raw. Vulnerable to the deepest part a person can be and I’m protecting my soul. You know the soul that I came here to work on?